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Which do you choose?

Becoming aware how darkness and light are always inviting us in.

There's something I want to share with you.

Every morning, I've been waking up feeling hopeless and depressed.

This has happened on and off for years. I am not entirely sure why it happens, but I know I am not powerless to shift it. When I get into bed at night, I am usually in a state of contentment and gratitude for the beautiful day I just lived. I think about my favorite part of the day and think of something wonderful I will do tomorrow, then I fall asleep sending rainbows of love to my family, friends and the world.


It baffles me how I can fall asleep surrounded by such peaceful feelings of love and light and wake up 8 hours later in darkness and dread.


In the first moments of consciousness, when I recognize the emotions coursing through me, I am unable to move, to open my eyes or put my feet on the floor. A minute passes… two, three, four… I am tempted to fall back asleep and see if I can have a do-over. Maybe if I force myself to dream about something happy, I will wake up feeling happy, feel the light and hope and joy that I know is really inside of me.

Some mornings I do fall back asleep, but nothing changes. Other times, my first thought is to blame myself ‘What’s wrong with you, Jeannette?  Stop doing this to yourself!’  Or I blame my husband ‘I must be absorbing his dark energy while I sleep.’

Then there are mornings I simply lay there examining the darkness, noticing the quality of it — its weight in my body, its tenancy in my heart. I know if I stay too long in those thoughts, I will become lost in them, as I was for a long time several years ago.  It is usually in that moment — the moment when the darkness starts feeling familiar — that the truth jolts me upright.

I have a choice.

No matter the reason why this horrible Ground Hog Day-like scenario keeps happening, I still get to choose what happens next.  I get to decide whether I hide under the covers or open the window. And the most extraordinary thing is that the moment the window is opened and I take a breath of fresh air, or hear the birds or feel the wind on my face, the spell is broken. Like someone flicking a switch, I am suddenly back in the light, feeling the joy, hope and gratitude that is my true nature — and the true nature of us all.

Maybe that is its purpose.  Perhaps the darkness presents itself so that I might have the chance every day to consciously choose the light.


With great love,


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Author:
Jeannette Folan
Jeannette is the author of the novel "Diary of a Teenage Empath" and two HSP/Empath workbooks for children & teens. She is an Integrative Health Coach who, with her mentor Dr. Wendy Nickerson, launched the first-ever accredited HSP training program for mental health professionals. She leads an HSP community group in Halifax and advocates for HSPs in the mental health community.
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